That Women

My heart is weak. The blood must not be flowing properly. Times are hard and I'm feeling like i can’t breathe. Tears in my eyes looking at my own reality. Always there for other people. Giving them advice on the situations in there life but yet i fail to work out the situations in my own life. How does that work.

Always trying be strong and keep up a wall in front of me and be the most who’s discrete because i continue to isolate my self from everybody. I bow down on my knees close my eyes n stretch my head to god and pray days and nights to ask him to strengthen me, because i am weak...just too weak to the fools who think they can control me.

When people come around i hold my ground. I lift my head high and i carry on and act like the strong women they think i am but it kills me inside because I've lost that image of who i am. Mistake after Mistake. but i keep telling my self there’s no more room for my dark days. its a new year. I need to take one more look at my self in the mirror and recognize i haven’t lost that image. I am bold. I am strong. I am that women!