Who Is Your Leader

My leader is God. I work hard to do the things he does and to be the righteous person he is. I admire him with all my heart and soul. He’s always been there for me, he has loved me before I loved him or even grew to understand and know whom he is.

I look to him for all my unanswered questions for he knows everything and what’s best for me. He knows where I want to go in life and he knows how I'm going to get there. He is able to guide me through life and allow me to grow and become the person he and I wish for me to be.

He has taught me how to humble my self, speak no evil, to love everyone even the ones who have done me wrong, to respect my parents, and to seek him first before I seek anyone else. He’s always given me encouragement, strength, advice, and the divine power to praise him. Because of him I can wake up every morning and breathe, eat, sleep, walk, run, speak, yell, shout, jump and dance.

Without the God, I probably wouldn't be here. I wouldn’t exist. Everyday I try my best to live my life right because he has inspired me to do so. He gives me that extra push and gives me a better reason everyday why my life serves a purpose. He is the reason why I strive everyday to make my life worth living for. I strive to be the best I can and do the best I can.

My world revolves around my leader. Everyday is a mission and a challenge to live the righteous way my leader did. I am on the move to become a virtuous women.

Christmas Redemption

It has been awhile now since Christmas Redemption has ended. Closing the curtains with two of our best shows. It was a very long road and I am happy that I finally got the chance to showcase my acting talent to people outside my school. It’s brought back memories of the days when I always used to go out on stage and dance like it was no ones business, competing against different dance companies. Everything was just phenomenal for me. I loved it. Yes, at times we would run into problems like costume changes, set changes, lighting and sound difficulties but that's what happens when your in a production, things will go wrong it's just the way you approach the issue and how you deal with it.

In this production I had two different character roles. On Saturday I played granny and on Sunday I played Claudette (Jamaican born). I would have to say my favorite show was on Saturday. I loved playing the role of granny, the acting just came so real, my lines were fully memorized and I felt it in my soul and heart that I knew I could go on stage and nail that character. Before that performance day I have never performed the granny character in front of anybody, maybe once in front of a little group but never in front of a big whole audience that were full of hundreds of people. I felt the motivation to bring it, go big or go home. I think the best part of playing granny would be the fact that I know people had doubt in me to see if I could play the granny character well because I was just an understudy. The original granny performed on Sunday because she couldn't do Saturday's show. My director needed a back up plan, and I was her first choice. She believed in me and knew that I could handle a huge role like Granny. Who was the main character and in every scene. So of course people had doubt if I could pull it off or not and I already knew that so when I went up there and I did, I was proud of myself and also gave the rest of my cast a good shock.

They recognized that I was perfect for the job, though at first when my director came to me I was like "oh no, this is a big role for me and its my very first stage play outside of school, I don't know if I can do it, I'm nervous". My director and the original granny gave me some words of encouragement and after a min of thinking about it I felt more confident and realized maybe this happened for a reason. I love acting and for my first time doing a stage play outside of school I got to play a main character. Well I believe that I couldn't of done it without my trainer (Original granny) and especially God. I prayed days and night about this performance and he allowed it to come through. Thank you God and thank you Kandice (O.G).

That Women

My heart is weak. The blood must not be flowing properly. Times are hard and I'm feeling like i can’t breathe. Tears in my eyes looking at my own reality. Always there for other people. Giving them advice on the situations in there life but yet i fail to work out the situations in my own life. How does that work.

Always trying be strong and keep up a wall in front of me and be the most who’s discrete because i continue to isolate my self from everybody. I bow down on my knees close my eyes n stretch my head to god and pray days and nights to ask him to strengthen me, because i am weak...just too weak to the fools who think they can control me.

When people come around i hold my ground. I lift my head high and i carry on and act like the strong women they think i am but it kills me inside because I've lost that image of who i am. Mistake after Mistake. but i keep telling my self there’s no more room for my dark days. its a new year. I need to take one more look at my self in the mirror and recognize i haven’t lost that image. I am bold. I am strong. I am that women!