Moving On

 

I smile and I laugh because for the first time I can see the glory out of this whole thing. I thought I was lost and dying to be found or maybe I didn't want to be but now i let out a sigh of relief because I know I'll be okay, I'll be free I'm no longer in your captivity.

Post Media Presentation

Nerve Racking

We finally got to execute all of the media presentations and I'm glad i finally got it over with because for the first i found it nerve racking to present. Building the poem was good time well spent and i enjoyed doing the work because i love writing poetry but i don’t know what came over me when it came time to present.

I felt the lights in my face, the heat building up, i completely felt like i was melting. I felt as if at times when i messed up everyone noticed and the room just seemed to be silenced. For the first time in my life, presenting was difficult. I guess i could say some of the reasons on why felt like that would be because i didn’t have my poem fully memorized and maybe i was worrying to much about if they would like it or if they liked it when i was done and is it good enough. My worst fear was if my teacher my adjudicator would like it and feel what i felt when i wrote that poem and saw the truth of life on the streets.

I have to say it was not one of my best presentations but i do plan on continuing to get better and gradually grow to be stellar at presenting. I will work on my memorization and i will try not to worry so much in the future. Doing these kind of challenges allows you to open up your eyes, view the streets with a different perspective and be more gracious to your surrounding people living their life struggling day to day. It also allows you to keep in mind how great your life is disregarding the mini situations or problems. It also teaches you to not take everything for granted and to enjoy the life you live.

Make wise decisions, for you only have one shot at life. I hope the class enjoyed my presentation and was able to connect with the message i was trying to deliver. I hope they can now open their eyes to these people struggling and will try to make a change. Let’s all contribute and make that change.

Pre and Post Scripted Scenes

“The Suspect”

Last week we were given scripted scene work to do with a partner. we were given a whole bunch of different scripts to choose from and my partner and i saw one that caught our eye right away. The script was titled “The Suspect”. we skimmed and scammed through the dialogue going over each character. Person 1 was the detective and person 2 was the suspect. We both equally decided that my partner would play detective Dickerson and that i would play the suspect, Ms. Hansen.


Plot Summery:
“The Suspect” is about a wealthy business man who died mysteriously in a hotel while on a vacation, this man is Ms. Hansen's father. When Ms. Hansen’s father died his doctor claimed it was caused by a heart attack, but the FBI thought they would do some more research on his death on how the heart attack was caused, so an autopsy was done. During the autopsy they found out that Ms. Hansen’s father had traces of heart medicine in him but that did not make any sense because her father was a completely healthy man so things did not add up. Now, this is where detective Dickerson comes in. It is Dickerson’s job to find out who killed Ms. Hansen’s father and detective Dickerson believes there were two people involved in his murder, a man named Joseph Chambers and the victims daughter Ms. Hansen. Ms. Hansen gets accused of being an accomplice of her own fathers death and that’s were the story begins. The setting takes place in a interrogation room.


I found this scripted scene to be a lot of fun and for the first time i found it easy to memorize my lines. I thought it would be difficult to memorize the whole dialogue but it turns out it wasn’t, i even ended up remembering some of my partners lines. I would say the only challenging part in executing this scripted scene was trying to remember full frontal acting, nuances and having the right pauses. Other than that this scene was fun to do and i think my partner and I did a wonderful job but it is obvious we could of polished up some things in order to fulfill expectations and to go beyond our expectations.

Love One Aother

For the past week I have really been trying to get closer with my Christan life and share thy wondrous work of the Lord Jesus Christ. I think it's a beautiful thing that I am pushing my self to go through this because, I can look at my self and see the progress I am making and my attitude and willingness to be apart of God's plan.

I want to share with you the weekend i had, the day i was going to church Sunday morning. I woke up, said a prayer and as i was getting ready i turned on the t.v to hear the word of God on channel 49, and i sat there for awhile taken in what the man was saying, but anyway i carried on and i was more happier then ever. Full of enthusiam and excitement, i was just plane hyper and my Grandmother looked at me and said " Jen, you look extreamly happy today, why are you so happy?" and i said "because i was listening to the word of God". She smiled at me and said good and allowed me to carry on. I have to say i felt good saying it was because i was listening to the word of God. Then for the past couple of days in church our message was Love and i connected to that preaching and expanded on it by reading more into the Bible on loving one another and so on. Now, i want to share a couple verses with you.

Matthew 5: 4-12

4. Blessed [are] they that mourn: for they shall be comforted. 

5. Blessed [are] the meek: for they shall inherit the earth. 

6. Blessed [are] they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. 

7. Blessed [are] the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy. 

8. Blessed [are] the pure in heart: for they shall see God. 

9. Blessed [are] the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God. 

10. Blessed [are] they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 

11. Blessed are ye, when [men] shall revile you, and persecute [you], and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake. 

12. Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great [is] your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you. 

Matthew 5: 38-48

38. Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth: 

39. But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also. 

40. And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have [thy] cloke also. 

41. And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain. 

42. Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee turn not thou away. 

43. Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. 

44. But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; 

45. That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. 

46. For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same? 

47. And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more [than others]? do not even the publicans so? 

48. Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect. 

Now I just want to encourage everybody to Love Thy Neighbor and Love your Enemies. Be humble and holly for you are God's child and he is watching you at all times. Try to be the people that God wants us to be. You may think it's hard and it is but ask for help and he will guide and lead you. We must love our sisters and brothers, for If we don't love the people in this world then how do you expect to get into the gates of heaven. We have come from  a Loving God so he expects us to love one another.

We Can't Be Friends

Can't Stop, Refuse To Stop

I cant seem to stop writing. The more I write, the more i start to feel better inside.
This is my forth entry since that night. My pencil can't seem to part with the paper.
My mind is eager to share it's thoughts. I don't know why but i'm just going with the flow.
Maybe it's because i can't seem to let go.

This must be poetry season. I can't believe I'm actually smiling.
I've been looking at this the whole time thinking negative
So why i'm i smiling when i can't see the positive

I guess I'll just keep writing till i figure it out.
I still feel the pain in my chest but it's getting better as i write this
im looking for healing, trying to remove the bad feeling

I couldn't sleep last night. I wonder if i will be able to sleep tonight.
Take my mind of things, give my self a break, from all this hardache
I still can't believe i seen it coming, knowing i had to do something

I didn't work hard enough, because if i did maybe i wouldn't be in this predicament
Love conquers all. I wonder who lied to you. If i make it through this. Then maybe it could be true.
I could write for days on just this one category.

That's exactly what I'm going to do. Let my poetry count the days till i work this through.
Not a day goes by where i don't think of you
Love.
This is what "love" does to you. After this I'm through.

Broken Pieces

As of yesterday, I'm back in the fighting game
Fighting to keep my heart strong, and to make sure it doesn't shudder and break once again.
I'm Torn up but i will be strong once again, I gotta find the strength and fight this to the end.
So i call on God, but I can't believe I'm going through this again.

The pain aches through my chest, no matter how strong, the pain comes regardless
Tears flow heavier then ever. Confusion and headaches come more frequently, hoping things will get better
but will they ever. Listen to your gut feeling. I choose to ignore it and look past it.
I shouldn't of did that because now i cant seem to move past this.

I don't get it. I've been through this before but this time it just seems different.
My past and flashbacks are back, because of this i feel used and i cant seem to understand that.
You wouldn't understand, because you don't know my past,
So i guess you wouldn't understand why i felt like that.

I put on a smile to the people around me, faking my grin from cheek to cheek. Trying to be the most discreet.
I write poetry because that's the only way i feel at peace.
Peace. I'm guessing that's were your at without me.
I know my heart has broken pieces, but I'm not broken yet you see.
But patience is key. So let me wait and see.
Everything is in your hands now, every move and decision you make, it all comes down to you now.

"Have You Ever"

"Have You Ever?"
[Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[Chorus]

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]


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Essence

I read an article called Allow us to reintroduce ourselves. When I read this I loved the fact that it focused on black women and how it allows black women to show their true beauty. It allows people who are afraid to encourage themselves, in this article this is exactly what Angela Burt Murray is talking about.

Angela has been writing magazines like this for 4 years now. Sharing the lives of black women and giving them advice on how to lift up their self esteem. Angela created this magazine to empower and inspire black women to be bold and beautiful and I find it extraordinary and very lovely that she wants to get out there and help our black women to stay strong. Angela had a vision and in my opinion I think she’s doing a fabulous job on completing that vision.

After reading this article, I too want to get out there and encourage black women, but not only black women but every kind of women or men out there who have low self esteem or are afraid to let their true beauty and intelligence to shine. I encourage everyone to be strong, be bold and stand out.

Se7en

In my Acting Academy class, we watched a movie called Seven. It was my first time watching this movie. First off i would like to say as scary as it was for me, I would like to watch this movie once more straight through, because i did not have the advantage of doing so. I believe if i was able to watch it straight through i could consume and take in everything properly.

The movie seven is about two detectives, a rookie and a veteran, working in a crime filled city who become deeply involved in a murder case. The murders are all correspondence to each of the seven deadly sins:

Pride is excessive belief in one's own abilities, that interferes with the individual's recognition of the grace of God. It has been called the sin from which all others arise. Pride is also known as Vanity.

Envy is the desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation.


Gluttony is an inordinate desire to consume more than that which one requires.

Lust is an inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body.

Anger is manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury. It is also known as Wrath.

Greed is the desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual. It is also called Avarice or Covetousness.

Sloth is the avoidance of physical or spiritual work.

Seven was a great movie a little disturbing but that was okay. It allows you to reflect back on your life and think about the things you do. You will start to try and figure out whether the things you do now or have been doing are right or wrong, and which of these seven deadly sins are you doing. Since we are all human i think we all at least have or done one of these sins. I will admit that there is one there that i need to work on and i have been working on it since the day i was baptized. Living right and staying away from the pleasures of sin is something i am trying to accomplish. It's not easy, not at all and that's why i will continue to live my life trying to live right in Gods name.

In the movie i liked how they allow us to take the time to understand what each death signifies, rather then going from one death to the next and not giving any space in-between to let the viewers take in and understand whats going on. The story line was good and the actors for this movie were chosen well. Who better to play the part of a detective who can barley hold is temper in then Brad Pit and who better to play the part of the calm , reasonable detective then Morgan Freeman. Both actors did a great job but i do have to say Kevin Spacey as (John Doe) did a remarkable, stellar job. I think his character was probably the hardest to play. I mean come on the guys playing a psycho path. Well that's what they make him look like in this movie. I can tell that this movie had some serious method acting involved.

John Doe: Oh really? So, what were you doing? Biding your time? Toying with me? Allowing five innocent people to die until you felt like springing your trap? Tell me, what was the indisputable evidence you were going to use on me right before I walked up to you and put my hands in the air?

One of my favorite parts was when they were riding in the back seat and John Doe (Kevin Spacey) starts explaining how these people are not consider innocent in his eyes and how each and every one of them deserved to die.Here is a quote from that scene,"[interrupts] A woman... so ugly on the inside she couldn't bear to go on living if she couldn't be beautiful on the outside. A drug dealer, a drug dealing pederast, actually! And let's not forget the disease-spreading whore! Only in a world this shitty could you even try to say these were innocent people and keep a straight face. But that's the point. We see a deadly sin on every street corner, in every home, and we tolerate it. We tolerate it because it's common, it's trivial. We tolerate it morning, noon, and night. Well, not anymore. I'm setting the example. What I've done is going to be puzzled over and studied and followed... forever".  Very well done. This was a real good movie and i recommend everyone to go and watch it and then reflect back on your life After you have watched it, believe me it will get you thinking and you will want to consider changing the way you do things in life and control the things you do. Also it will make you think of they way you treat people. I know i will continue to try and live right till the day i die, it will be my mission.

One Fabulous Musical

Wicked, the untold story of wizard of oz. One of the interesting, eye catching, standing ovation, breath taking show I've seen yet. A must see. This musical is about one girl born with emerald green skin, very intelligent, fiery, misunderstood young lady. The other girl is labeled as the beautiful, ambitious and popular. How ironic that these two people meet and become the best of friends. A little shaky in the beginning of course but later on actually develop a relationship. One grows to be known as the wicked witch of the west and the next becomes Glinda the good.

The Cast members were amazing. Each and every one of them performed with a 100%. I can only imaging how many times they had to rehearse and perform this over again.There voices were strong and beautiful. I couldn't understand how they not once ran out of breath signing those high notes. I have watched the Wizard of Oz. and i can tell you that the story is nothing like Wicked. They have transformed the story into their own perspective and i think that is what i loved about it the most. If you have no idea of what i am talking about then your just going to have to go and watch it for your self. Don't expect to go their and think your going to be watching the play version of Wizard of oz because you will be disappointed. You have to go their and watch it with a whole new lens. You are now watching it with somebody else point of view.

Everything was lovely. The lighting, the stage sets and transitions, the stage voices being used, the props, the emotions, nuances, costumes, make-up, blocking, background and especially the music. I mean imagine what this play would look like without the music. The musicians did an amazing job and are truly the ones who made this musical happen. When i sit there and watch these kind of plays and i think back to my self and say, "yup, this is exactly what i want to get into. Theatre is defiantly the way i want to go, there is no mistake." I mean i may not be able to sing like them but i sure wouldn't mind learning. The acting part looks fun and i know it probably was fun rehearsing this play with all those people. I can just imaging the laughter going on during rehearsal times. Though i do know it not all laughs and fun, it is also about getting down to work and being seriously in the moment of your character and nailing your parts. Practice! Practice! Practice!

"Toss Toss " Only Glinda!

One of my favorite parts was when Glinda and Elphaba were having a conversation in their dorm. Glinda was trying to help Elphaba look more appealing and to teach her how to become popular. Her song in this scene was amazing, i loved it. In this scene you can see how much Megan Hilty (Glinda) was in the moment. She played her character well. They both did. They were able to lose there selves in their character. I want to be able to go to the extent of becoming your character as much as Megan Hilty did. I also want to be as transparent as Eden Espinosa. Both actors were amazing. They did a stunning job and both have beautiful strong voices.

I think that every cast member was the perfect person for this play. There is so much more i would like to say about it but I wouldn't want to spoil the whole thing. If you have not seen this musical, I suggest you get out there and watch it. I have seen other musicals, plays, Broadway shows but not on a regular. It is now my mission to be in and to go see as many musical/Broadway shows as i can. I'm in love with theatre life. I hope other actors/actresses love it as much as i do.

-WICKED-

The Story I Captured

The Sad Reality

Why do people have to suffer? Why do people have to live their lives struggling, day by day? It makes my heart weak to look into their eyes and see the reality of how they live. It makes me want to reach out and help them. To give them everything they need. But it’s hard to give what you don’t have yourself. There are people out there with mental conditions, being looked at different. People always watching them and nobody wants to be their friend. They’re too afraid of them. The poor. Afraid to reach out to them. The week. Afraid of the reaction they might give them. The Mentally Challenged.

Nobody knows what could happen. They sit there in their little corner, watching these high class people walk by giving not a care in the world. Yet in their mind their probably thinking I wish I had the strength to get my life back on track. To be able to stand tall and walk like that, or maybe their not thinking that. They could be saying who cares. Nobody cares about me. No one wants to acknowledge me, because to them I’m a freak, just a bum on the street. They look at me and say I’m not going to help you. You did this to your self. Don’t look at me for help. But how could they say that. To these unfortunate people. You don’t know their story. You don’t know how they got there.

It makes me sick to see the world we live in. We have all these governors, presidents, prime ministers, over the top people in control but yet our cities remain to be out of control. I have failed to see what they have done for these people. It’s more like our humanitarians out there who really care for them. The ones who really want to help them and not just pretend. Then again I could be wrong. Maybe these people in control our doing something and it’s cause there’s too many people out their struggling that they can’t help all of them. Let’s just hope they don’t give up on them. I wonder why some of these people go crazy. What is their mentality? Have you ever thought how easy it is for us to survive in cold whether but a struggle for others? These poor people are out their stuffing news paper in their shirts, cuddling together trying to warm each other. They don’t care if it matches or if it looks good. People like us will take a year and a day to leave there house if they can’t find the right outfit. Don’t Lie. Don’t shake your head and say you don’t do it. It’s not like that for them. The weak, the poor, the trouble minded. The addicted ones.

Yes. Let’s talk about addiction. The crack heads. Can we really blame them? It was hard for them to say no. It was hard for them to resist so rehab couldn’t aid them. People look down at them. But we really should be looking down at the people selling these drugs to them. Messing with their heads, their health. But it’s like a circle of poverty because some of these drug dealers are selling this stuff because their struggling their self. Broke, with no where to go.  Should we have pity on these unfortunate people? Do you want to help them? Help change their lives, the ones who have made the streets their homes. Aren’t we all tired of seeing the weak? The poor, the sick or are you guys already used to seeing it. It’s sad that no matter what, people will continue to walk past them. They will continue to look down on them and you know why, because it’s just the sad twisted reality of the world we live in.

Queen And Ossigntion Trip

What an amazing experiance i had on Friday October 29th 2010. A day i will never forget. I had a great time downtown toronto with my classmates and my sqaudrant (Q2). Our trip was tied into our challenge that i blogged about yeserday. I never knew vintage shopping could be that much fun.

I had no idea what vintage shopping was until this day. I was clueless. With the help of my group i was able to understand what vintage was and how vintage shopping worked. I was amazed by their fashion from back in the day. I always used to hear my mom talking about her fashion from back then but i didnt really pay much attention to it. i would just simply laugh everytime she brought up one of her story's about how they used to dressed when they went to school, when they went out to parties or just simply what they wore around the house. Vintage shopping opened my eyes.

The fact that these clothes were worn from other people slipped my mind when i went vintage shopping. I was to excited by the time i rememberd and i didnt really care by then. I guess most people would say most vinatge shopping is for people who cant really afford to buy anything else. I strongly disagree with them. The clothes are cheap but i wouldn't consider it for the less fortunate because i would glady love to shop their. they have some pretty good stuff. Not to mention there are vintage clothing there that are quite expensive. I think that vintage shopping is for people that like to kick it like the old days and still look good doing it. There were so many things in these stores that caught my eye. Things that i would actually consider keeping for my self. In my opinon vintage clothing would be a nice collection to have.

While we were on our trip we were asked to capture a story. You had to capture it in some type of way and i choose poetry. I believe poetry is my strong side when it comes to being in depth and touched emotionally. Dancing is another way but i rather perform it to my class through poetry. It was challenging to capture a story and vintage shop at the same time but it wasn't impossible. Glady we all got through. It will take me a little time to put together my poetry because in order for it to sound good i have to be in the moment. In my opinion i believe if you write when your not in the moment it wont sound as good or emotionally connected in a way to leave an impact on your listeners or readers. I am currently still working on it and i can't wait to see the finish product.

For everyone out their i encourage you to experiance vintage shopping if you havent already experianced it. It will be a memorible day for you. i also suggest if you have a camera to bring it with you. You will feel the need to take pictures of the things you see and beleive me, you dont want to miss out.

Challenge 3

WOW! Challenge three, here it is. Last week we were finally launched into challenge number 3. I can tell you right now that these challenges keep getting bigger and more fun if i might add. The first and second challenge were good but this challenge was a bit of a shock and exciting at the same time.

Our challenge was to go down to Queen and Ossignton and go vintage shopping with the limit of 10 dollars.  It was mandatory that you stay within the budget price. You can either by one piece of article or a full costume.  Your group must come together to construct a performance and incorporate that piece of article you buy into your performance.

Before we went on our trip our teacher wanted us to create a blue print of where we are going, how long it will take to get there,  the name of the stores, locations, numbers, EVERYTHING. That means we had a lot of research to be done before anyone went anywhere. I think that it was a good idea for us to do that because people should know where there going at all times. My group did some major research and we each divided the work appropriately, so everyone had something to do. Since i knew nothing about vintage shopping, the research came in handy for me. It was easier for me to have a visual of what vintage shopping would be like. Having a blue print played a big and important role for our trip.

I found choosing a theme and a year you were going to focus on to be the easiest part of the challenge. Our group went ahead with the 80's and i loved how we all agreed and how everyone felt positive about the decision we made. Each and every single one of us came together with a theme but later on were convinced that it might not work out well. We were convinced to choose another. We came up with a second theme and everyone loved the idea. We started planing ahead of the type of clothes we should be looking for and what characters would be involved. We thought about our characters, nuances, relationships, climax, denouement and much more. All that was left was to go shopping  and do our best to win this challenge.

Shopping wasn't the only thing we had to do we also had to create a story from what you see around you. For example: homelessness and the effect vintage shopping has on you or other people. What a challenge we had. A little tough but achievable. Nothing will stop us Soul Visionary's.